Hey, thanks for the message.
I’m not a model or work in the industry I just do this in my spare time. I’m sorry to hear to suffered with self harm and I’m glad to hear you are getting your life on track.
Try some oils like Bio Oil or non perfumed moisturiser to improve the appearance of the scars, it could help with your confidence. Websites like Model Mayhem are great for getting opportunities for photoshoots. Many photographers are really to do it for free if you are starting out to build up their portfolio and for you to build up yours. So expecting a payment at the beginning isn’t really realistic. That’s really it for starting out.
Just take care of yourself, ALWAYS make sure you have someone with you at the photoshoots and let family members or friends know where both of ye are too. If you ever feel uncomfortable or unsure leave or don’t attend. Be careful, modelling is fun and an art but can be a very pressuring industry, it can build your confidence but also it can make you lose it. Stay true to who you are, and do what you feel comfortable with, have fun and stay safe. Good luck <3